This weekend we set the clock back an hour. I gained an hour sleep, still I went through Monday feeling totally out of sorts. Unfocused, I flitted around from thought to thought like a trapped moth. It felt as though I set back the clock and set back my life. I attempted to get something on my to-do list done and my mind wandered off to something else. When I turned my attention to the something else, I experienced the same inability to focus. It was uncomfortable to say the least. When I set the clock back, did this awaken the moth? Maybe. Maybe not. Still, I felt stressed about the lack of focus and not accomplishing what I set out to do. I knew it was time to open my coaching tool box and get out the spiritual medicine.

I turned to the teachings of Byron Katie who reminds me, “When you know that whatever you need is what you get, life becomes paradise.” This helped me start to relax. The moth still flitting, I eased into the movement of yoga, sun salutations, to the rhythm of my breath. Nonetheless, there is something within that has me thinking that this, too, is unproductive and I realize my pattern of thinking I need to be somewhere else and in a hurry. I bring my attention back to the present moment and connect with my breath again. In the awareness of the moment I am complete, whole, and all is well. The stress I experience is my resistance to what is, resistance to allowing what is in front of me in this moment to be what I need. The pain is always in the resistance.

As simply as I set the clock back, I set the intention to let go of this resistance and become curious about what is. What if I embrace the moth? What if I love that she’s here, and allow her to flit around in her own way? Where might she lead me? What is she here to teach me? Are my actions, my to-do’s, supporting the life I am creating for myself? Is there alignment with my intention to be playful and adventurous in life? Am I coming from a place of self-love and care? What if not doing the stuff on my to-do list today is the opening to something better? I ease into these ideas and open to what is. Although it isn’t clear to me yet, what I am experiencing in this moment is what I need.

At the end of the day, as I open my journal to write in gratitude for the day, the page falls open to this Robert Louis Stevenson quote; “Don’t judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds that you plant.” Exactly what I need…again. Out of what feels like confusion, my intention for the rest of the week comes through loud and clear. I’m focused once more on planting seeds, on nurturing what feels like love, peace, play and adventure, and pulling up the weeks of doubt and resistance knowing that in every moment I have exactly what I need.

From my heart to yours,